Debbie Karema, a 61-year-old woman from Hemel Hempstead, Hertfordshire, expressed sorrow about her decision to change her gender at the age of 44 through surgery.
She claimed to the BBC that she was about to revert to her former gender.
Revealing why she transitioned into a man, Debbie revealed she did it to “become accepted in the world” and escape the “traumatised” memories she endured as a girl child.
Debbie said that when she was an adolescent, her now-deceased estranged father had sexually molested her.
She underwent a complete female-to-male surgical transition to achieve her goal, which included phalloplasty, in which the skin of her forearm was used to create a penis.
Along with changing her name to Lee, she had a physical makeover during her 17 years of testosterone use.
“I thought I was going to be on a journey to becoming a different person… I’d morph into someone else and leave that traumatized woman completely behind,” she said.
She, however, said she feels like a woman “trapped in an approximation of a male body”, adding that the transition was her “greatest mistake”.
“This was a mistake that should never have happened… how do I go back to being the Debbie that I was?,” she asked.
She said she’s speaking out on the subject to discourage others from undergoing transition.
“It became apparent that transitioning was a big mistake. The session where I realised this was so bad that I had a complete break down and panic attack, because I realised it was a huge mistake,” Daily Mail quoted her to have said.
At 61, Debbie is now undergoing a detransitioning to return to her original gender as a female after counselling.
It is believed that her case is one of the many incidences of people desiring a change of gender identity through the services of National Health Service (NHS), publicly funded by national healthcare system in England.
James Caspian, a psychotherapist, who has come in contact with several detransitioners, stated that such decision is always informed by the fear of being exposed to risks as a female.
“This whole area of transgender medicine is very under researched,” he said.
“Quite a lot of them seem to have had a very negative experience of being female in a female body – sexual harassment, even abuse.”